The Sunshine Club is here to help people who have lost a loved one and now find themselves in limbo, knowing life will never be the same again. Often, there is a real fear of the unknown with many changes needed to move forward from this point in time. Change is hard. It can be a scary journey to face alone, because everything we thought and knew our futures to be now looks very different.

My name is Estelle and in August 2017, my partner, just 51 tragically took his own life. In the same year I also lost my 98-year-old grandma, a true matriarch of the family and my friend from horrid cancer at the tender age of 40. It really was a life changing, devastating year. What followed surprisingly, was 18 months of me turning into a super-human. Looking back, I have no idea how I managed the extreme stress of being a mum and business owner, wrestling with a major house renovation, meeting solicitors and barristers on a prolonged coroner’s inquest, financial worry, family upheaval – the list goes on. And this is on top of dealing with my own grief and the inner turmoil a sudden death brings into your life. This rollercoaster challenged my resilience and fortitude to the max!

With hindsight I now realise my behaviour was simply a coping mechanism. I needed to fill my time and keep busy, which was what got me through a deeply sad and traumatic time. But this is not something that can be sustained, and yes it has now caught up with me in lots of ways. I need time to focus on me because it’s important for my future.

2019 is now MY YEAR. I am putting ME, MYSELF & I, back together again. I have gone from feeling utterly broken, to acknowledging that I can’t change the past. But, I can engineer my own future and live life my way, because I whole heartedly believe that LIFE IS FOR LIVING! There is only one thing getting in the way of making this happen and that’s me, myself & I. I just need to FRICKING DO THIS.

So, I am going to share with you how I do it and have created The Sunshine Club Facebook page so that you can travel on the journey with me. I want to help you move from being in limbo, to taking back control of your life and finding the freedom you seek to be the best version of yourself. Together we can do this.

I am sure there are other people out there just like me, who have had their life put on hold after losing someone close to them. They want to move forward into a new way of life but don’t know how. I know I can’t be the only one.

The Sunshine Club will provide daily posts and twice weekly vlogs.

In addition, for those committed to making changes to their life and want to move forward from grief, I share my own experience of what strategies work best with lots of love and support too so I can help you get back on the journey to living a fulfilled life after loss.

Thanks for reading this post, if you know anyone who may find The Sunshine Club helpful, please feel free to forward onto them.
I would really appreciate it if you could like this post and share it onto your own page, so I can spread the word and reach out to as many people as possible.

Onwards and Upwards and thank you in advance

Estelle Mutum x

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